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Bureaucracy at People's Service, Not the People Serving Bureaucracy
2006/11/21
In the Name of Almighty God-the All-Knowing, the Most Lovingly CompassionateI have been thinking about the advantages and disadvantages of bureaucracy ‎for some time now. The main question is how much does the contemporary system ‎of bureaucracy help to solve people's problems? ‎Bureaucracy is not a new phenomenon. Powerful governments and ‎civilizations have always had ministerial and bureaucratic discipline. In recent times, ‎bureaucracy has come to be known as rational and scientific management. ‎Nevertheless, we have to see how the written guidelines, instructions and procedures ‎‎(in a bureaucratic system) - which have been the subject of the theoretical discussions ‎concerning the issue of instrumental rationalism- differ from that which has ‎practically happened. And we have to especially pay attention to those bureaucratic ‎systems which have occurred in the name of modernizing governments in the last few ‎decades, and indeed how these processes have rationalized government and how ‎much they have "governmentalized" minds - meaning having made them formal, ‎administrative, and functioning based on certain clichés. ‎Revolutions can get entangled in the spider webs of bureaucracy and these ‎webs have a reactionary and backward-looking character. They diffuse all the ‎revolutionary spirit and consciousness. They would return conditions back to pre-‎revolutionary times. ‎I totally believe in the positive aspects of the bureaucracy on the condition that ‎it truly works within the course of scientific management. But for instance, in ‎countries such as ours - which in the previous few decades had been under the ‎dominion of a puppet regime and have experienced some type of an imposed and ‎imported counterfeit model (of governance) - the bureaucracy has basically been ‎made a government inside a government. In such a case, this gives the appearance ‎that the country, its economy, and its budget are somehow appraisable, planned, ‎scientific and transparent. But in reality, it makes many things unclear, opaque, ‎impracticable, and in many cases it even actively counteracts projected government ‎plans.‎Even more, it is better to say that sometimes bureaucracy loses its fundamental ‎role and changes into an ideology. It creates an atmosphere that imposes an impaired, ‎paralyzed, disabled, and stagnant condition and character on the whole system. ‎Consequently and gradually, the procedure becomes the goal, and the goal becomes ‎the procedure. ‎Bureaucratic ideology would in effect cause internal friction within a system. ‎Everyone knows his work and duties in detail, but no one knows anything regarding ‎the whole task and its practical result. Everybody is busy with working, but the work ‎does not proceed. They work, but no problems are solved and no ties will be ‎untangled. ‎In summary, one must say that the present bureaucratic system has a few ‎prominent characteristics. First of all, it grows and multiplies rapidly, like ivy which ‎grows in every direction. It constantly expands its domain of influence, jurisdictional ‎boundaries and area of rule. ‎Second, it defends itself with all its power. It does not even like to give up ‎unnecessary equipment that it has and is not even willing to transfer them to others ‎who might need them, and it keeps them with unjustifiable reasons.‎Third, it is extremely self-serving, self-centered and narrow-minded. Its ‎fourth characteristic is that it resists any changes and reforms. It regards any reforms ‎as a disadvantage to itself and it will resist it. And finally, its efficiency is very low ‎and its expenditures are very high and keep escalating. ‎What would be some solutions in such a circumstance? ‎Some would simply give up and would receive reports and statistical studies ‎from their subordinates and would pass them on to their higher-ups in the hierarchy. ‎And with these statistical reports they would clear their conscience. ‎But for a person such as me, the people are more important than the statistics. ‎All governments and chief executive officers present these types of statistics and ‎know how to play the numbers game. It means that based upon their official reports, ‎everything is perfect and everyone can sleep sound, because the bureaucracy is ‎awake. ‎But in reality, the people's problems have not been solved. This is a dangerous ‎issue which I have noticed since I was the mayor of Tehran and even before that time ‎it bothered me. And I have tried to break with these erroneous customs and wrong ‎imported "innovations", and free the government administration from the web which ‎has tangled its operations. Sometimes I succeeded and sometimes I could not.‎The second way of being emancipated from the quagmire of bureaucracy is by ‎infringing or bypassing the laws. Many people – because of the interest of their ‎gangs, parties, political factions or their own personal interests- have followed this ‎way. These practices and operations are not consistent with my belief and ‎characteristic, and in no way do I believe in these types of approaches. I have come to ‎the office for the reform of this, because I strongly believe that we can not arrive at ‎Islamic government unless everyone is equal before the law and this is guaranteed. ‎The third way is to have a revolutionary reform, refining, and cleansing in the ‎bureaucratic system of the country. This is a crucial duty of the parliament and the ‎government which has to take place immediately - even partially- in this period of ‎time. Otherwise later on, one can not expect this to happen, because it will become ‎more difficult day-by-day. ‎Bureaucracy- which is the manifestation of instrumental rationalism and has to ‎be instrument- has itself become the goal and object of the government. Instead of ‎lowering the expenditure and making the budget clear and implementing the plans, it ‎has become a brake on the governmental operations. Indeed, one can say that this ‎dysfunction has escalated so far that some networks are created and established so ‎that the public funds be spent on private expenditure - a system for stalling creativity ‎and inventiveness and converting a revolutionary, surging and innovative river to a ‎lifeless and motionless marsh. ‎Now we have come to a very important junction: will the revolution be ‎sacrificed for bureaucracy or is the bureaucracy at the service of the revolution. ‎The other point regarding this issue (of bureaucracy) is that we must reach an ‎equilibrium point between theory and practice. We continuously face two dangerous ‎issues in this path. One is unprofessional and unscientific encounter with the ‎challenges we face - without considering the problems of the country- which can be ‎called a spur-of-the-moment approach (without considering the quality of the results). ‎‎(One should note that a spur-of-the-moment approach is different than an activist ‎approach and indeed they are opposites).‎The second danger is that in the name of scientific management or rationalism, ‎and through bureaucratic excuses and hiding behind the title of "gradual reform", we ‎justify stagnation and reactionary management and even go backwards. ‎Some people want to justify and theorize national and managerial laziness, ‎slowness and incompetence - under the false banner of being scientific approach. ‎This is also a form of dodging one's responsibility and action in the name of ‎perfectionism. Being scientific is different than an unhealthy intellectualism. One ‎can not solve all real problems (of the people) from inside closed-off rooms. Science ‎has to be at the disposal of actions and deeds. I am worried of the thought that the ‎public funds and historical opportunity of the ninth government would be sacrificed ‎for the stagnant mentality, action-dodging and conservatism of some people. ‎I am against rashness and action-for-actions sake, but we should not let the revolution ‎and people be sacrificed for bureaucracy. Our historical duty is to put bureaucracy at ‎the service of the people. Our slogan should be: ‎Bureaucracy at people's service, not the people serving bureaucrac

Written by Mahmoud Ahmadinejad at 19:55

COMMENTS

Tipene Curtis
tip...@yahoo.com
Greetings Your Excellency I see that the American Military is playing the Lets Blame Iran game. Iran is apparently the reason why things are so bad in Iraq. Do the Americans think that we are all crazy and will believe their continuous lies. Will it ever end.
manrix bianchi

juz...@yahoo.it
Dear and honorable president my lasts comments not was pubblied and i admire you why this? Are messages too much for show all? Long life to you and Iran and all country that no like death but life.
freddy utensilz

I just discovered this. I would not like my political beliefs present here, but I think this forum, is a fabulous idea. What an excellent way to communicate with the masses, and have the masses express themselves here.
Kusuma
I really support you Mr.President. Keep going! Im just surprise why somepeople still prefer fist (war) rather than brain (dialogue) to solve problems in this so called modern world.

Karil Loubas
kar...@hotmail.com
I see that you choose only what you like; this is very curios to see how much you love yourself and how much you think that people are stupid to believe that you never receive any critics.

Nicolas
tra...@yahoo.com
Youre one of the most stupid president ever ! Im sure about half of the comments posted of this blog are just totally fake and used as propaganda.
Viktor Jančo
r.a...@centrum.sk
Nice blog, God bless Iran!

Gary Adamson
gsa...@hotmail.com
Why would anybody want to listen to you. youre surpressive
alexander
mr president you are a great leader...god bless you

Sami
sha...@yahoo.co.uk
in my views other countries need a leader like you too.i appreciate your courage and your stance and your bravery.you do not have place only in the hearts of Iranians but in the hearts of all freedom lovers around the world.but do not disappoint us like the other rulers,please.many thanks

Jerry Ford
Jer...@comcast.net
The only news we here in the United States hear about your country are the negative things reported in the media. I am certain there be some positive things coming out of Iran, but all we get to hear is the constant condemnations of George bush, Dick Cheney, etc. whom many of this countries ‎citizens see as terrorists of a sort due to the war in Iraq and the support of torture (water boarding, etc), monitoring of citizens email, web sites visited, phone calls, books checked from libraries, etc. Thank god this is an election year as any replacement is better than we have now. Thank you for you time.

TAM SIK SZE
edm...@yahoo.com.hk
Dear Mr Mahmoud Ahmadinejad My name TAM Sik Sze. I am from Hong Kong. I saw your Blog. I am to admire Mr Mahmoud Ahmadinejad have to pilot Iran to be heading for powerful and prosperous. I to support to Iran develop nuclear energy.

Frank Fu
f19...@yahoo.com.cn
Like the title and thank you for your time and for your words of inspiration.I think in this way more and more Chinese will know you and your country better. Thank you very much!!

han guanghui
ais...@126.com
you are very brave that you can fight against to USA ,I support you forever

Juan Pablo lla Amador
There are a very few leaders with the intelligence and courage to confront the zionism and the U.S. imperialism, my best wishes for you and all your people.

Jack Meyhoffer
kin...@yahoo.com
I hope someone puts a bullet in your head very soon.

muhammed ali demir
dem...@gmail.com
well, Mr. President firstly, nowadays, Iran does not give Turkey enough gas please solve to tis problem.secondly, according to some researches, in Turkey, Mr. Ahmedinejad ,you were selected best foreign leader and many Turks both shias and suniies love you..Please keep your performance up!

Dani California
People like you take the world back to darkness instead of bringing it forward to PEACE
Kevin
You are the type of man that would start WW3. You say some pretty stupid things sometimes.

ali khan
auk...@excite.com
His excellency, it gives me immense pleasure to visit your site and post my comments this fabulous blog of a leader of free world not only islamic world. i have been following the remarkable efforts that you are pursuing in bringing the world together and making it a more safe place to live.Standing against the bullies has proved that you are a man of grit and character.Its high time that all islamic nations leave their fixation of sunni -shia divide and work towards ensuring more prosperous and powerful islamic community.I am a sunni muslim but a strong critic of sunni capitalist politics which leaves behind the interest of common people.Iran is a true islamic state in meaning and spirit.May almighty allah bless Islamic Republic of iran and its visionary and distinguished leader imam khomeni(RA). may allah bless you,you are the voice of repressed people of the world

Nadim K
nad...@keihatsu.org
Mr. President; Congratulations on your recent victory. I dont know much about you, and what I do know about you comes from many conflicting sources, but I wish you good health.

Leonard Haggstrom
fil...@shaw.ca
I knew you were telling the truth.

George Cheng Shu
shu...@gmail.com
I think many people on the world do not really know Iran, especially for Irans long history and great culture. I will say, I hope Iran will use its nuclear for peace. Im happy to visit Mr. presidents blog. Its a good way to know Iran whitout the world powers sight.

paul sharfin
pfc...@yahoo.com
Mr. President I think the problem is not enough people read between the lines as to what you are saying. My hope is that the world and Iran come to an understanding that centers on PEACE

Colby Brown
tri...@att.net
God bless Iran, Bush and Isreal are unfair to Iran. I am sorry for the way you were treated at our university. All americans are not the same as Bush. Peace god bless Iran and the rest of the world!

jeannie sanden
jea...@yahoo.com
DEAR PRESIDENT AHMADINEJAD -- I PRAY FOR PEACE , THE END TO SUFFERING FOR ALL THE PEOPLE -- THE INJUSTICE ANYWHERE IS A THREAT TO JUSTICE EVERYWHERE -- WE MUST RESPECT ALL OF GODS PEOPLE / CREATION ! GOD BLESSED ALL THE WORLD -- NOT JUST AMERICA !

Isis Wong
I come to your blog just for a glance, its so liberal of you to think ou the idea of setting a blog. I didnt pay much attention to international politics before, but I find you a very intelligent and smart president~ Wish Iran and you all the best!

ken mcfly
die...@bex.net
die slow ...
Bill Cumming
bil...@s0l.co.uk
I find it strange that the leader of the Free World hides so much and is afraid of free speech. While others, like yourself, offer open discourse. I may not agree with you on some things but at least you are willing to hear differences. Peace be with you.

D DuBois
dal...@yahoo.ca
Cool... are these all real comments from real people? Or planted? Anyway, your blogs are somewhat formal sounding. Why not loosen up the language a little for the American readers? And could you tell us a little about your home life and your family and what your daily routine is like. Also what kind of music do you like? What is your favorite color and what is your favorite sport?

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Mahmoud Ahmadinejad, who was elected Iran's president in June 2005, was an obscure figure when he was appointed mayor of Tehran in the spring of 2003.
He was not much better known when he entered the presidential election campaign, although he had already made his mark as Tehran mayor for rowing back on earlier reforms.
Since his election he has taken a tough stand on a number of foreign policy matters, in line with his hard-line background.
His comments that Israel should be "wiped off the map" and that the Holocaust was a "myth" drew widespread condemnation from the West.
Revolutionary credentials
Mr Ahmadinejad was born in Garmsar, near Tehran, in 1956, the son of a blacksmith, and holds a PhD in traffic and transport from Tehran's University of Science and Technology, where he was a lecturer.
There has been confusion about his role in the 1979 Islamic Revolution.
Several of the 52 Americans who were held hostage in the US embassy in the months after the revolution say they are certain Mr Ahmadinejad was among those who captured them.

He insists he was not there, and several known hostage-takers - now his strong political opponents - deny he was with them.
His website says he joined the Revolutionary Guards voluntarily after the revolution, and he is also reported to have served in covert operations during the 1980-88 Iran-Iraq war.
When he became mayor of Tehran, the former revolutionary guard curtailed many of the reforms put in place by the moderates who had run the city before him.
Iran's outgoing reformist president, Mohammad Khatami, barred Mr Ahmadinejad from attending cabinet meetings, a privilege normally accorded to mayors of the capital.
Mr Ahmadinejad reportedly spent no money on his presidential campaign - but he was backed by powerful conservatives who used their network of mosques to mobilise support for him.
He also had the support of a group of younger, second-generation revolutionaries known as the Abadgaran, or Developers, who are strong in the Iranian parliament, the Majlis.
His presidential campaign focused on poverty, social justice and the distribution of wealth inside Iran.
Hard-line approach
During his campaign, he also repeatedly defended his country's nuclear programme, which has worried the US and European Union.
Once in power, he made a defiant speech at the UN on the nuclear issue and refused to back down on Tehran's decision to resume uranium conversion.
He continued his defiance despite the reporting of Iran's nuclear programme to the UN Security Council and the possible threat of sanctions.
He said no power could take away Iran's right to nuclear fuel technology.
Mr Ahmadinejad has maintained a hard line with the US, with whom diplomatic ties were broken in 1979.
At home, he banned Western and "indecent" music from state-run TV and radio stations in December 2005.
However, BBC analyst Sadeq Saba says there have been moves inside Iran to rein in the president.
'Confrontational'
Powerful figures such as former President Akbar Hashemi-Rafsanjani believe Mr Ahmadinejad's confrontational approach has backfired.
They say the US struggled to report Iran to the Security Council for a long time, but with Mr Ahmadinejad's help Washington got what it wanted in a few months.
Mr Ahmadinejad has now made some small-scale concessions to moderates. He said he would not be confrontational in enforcing a campaign in Tehran to insist women obeyed Iran's strict Islamic dress codes.
He has also allowed women into major sporting events for the first time since 1979.
Mr Ahmadinejad maintains a populist streak, calling his personal website Mardomyar, or the People's Friend.
He also has a reputation for living a simple life and campaigned against corruption.

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Jurnal Hati Versi Pagi

Aku adalah insan yang simak jenuh lalu lalang manusia. Ada yang datang, ada yang pergi, dan ada pula yang kembali. Ada yang datang menempa harapan, ada yang datang untuk memuja mimpi, dan ada yang datang untuk menyakiti. Namun jerit hati tak lagi memekik nyaring. Karena ukiran pasir merupakan bukti, yang lukiskan segala memori. Sekaligus hantarkan segala perih dalam angin abadi. Inilah aku yang berdiri, disaat semua pergi dan kembali. Inilah aku yang duduk sendiri menepis semua ilusi yang belenggu hati.

Seandainya apa yang datang kelak tinggalkan diri, maka tak pelak jika hati ini kembali bermain pasir. Karena aku berdiri untuk melihat apa yang datang dan apa pula yang pergi. Bersama empat kawan yang abadi. Jadi, biarkan aku tetap mengukir pasirku. Jikalau dirimu pergi, aku masih sanggup untuk berdiri.

Agar aku kembali

Pada apa yang pernah kutiti

Raja-Raja Gelap

A Man Who Knows Nothing

A MAN WHO KNOWS NOTHING

Oleh: Raja-Raja Gelap

Disana, tepat di ujung jalan itu aku menyaksikan tubuhku tergeletak tak bernyawa. Sesosok mayat yang bahkan seekor anjingpun enggan untuk mengendus baunya. Orang-orang berlalu lalang tiada henti tanpa ada satupun keinginan untuk sekedar menoleh menyaksikan tubuhku yang tergeletak. Disana, tepat di jalan Hell Suffer yang sempit dan gelap. Aku terdiam kaku menyaksikan tubuhku dengan bisu. Ingin rasanya kubawa tubuhku dan kukubur di tempat yang sepantasnya. Tapi aku kini hanyalah sesuatu, yang hanya bisa mencari sesuatu yang bahkan tak kutahu apa itu. Aku diam... Genap sudah satu abad aku mencari sebuah jawaban atas pertanyaan yang diajukan oleh banyak manusia. Mungkin juga kau... tentang, mengapa kita hidup.

Surga, waktu tidak diketahui

“Sebentar lagi kau akan kukirim ke dunia untuk menjalani hidupmu sebagai seorang manusia. Kau kularang untuk melanggar hal-hal yang telah kutitahkan dalam kitab ini, kau akan hidup secara wajar dan mencari jalan untuk dapat kembali lagi kesini bersamaku”. Sesosok tubuh dengan penuh kebingungan bertanya, “Mengapa aku harus menjadi seorang manusia?” Sang Cahaya bertanya kepadanya dengan senyuman, “Apa kau tahu apa arti hidup?” “Tentu. Aku telah banyak melihat dari atas sini, hidup itu adalah medan dari segala kejahatan. Manusia diajarkan untuk berbuat jahat dan merugikan orang lain untuk dapat bertahan hidup. Manusia bahkan tak mengenal kasih sayang dan seringkali berbuat yang melanggar titah-MU. Lantas untuk apa aku menjadi manusia? Nantinya aku hanya akan menjadi salah satu dari mereka”. Sang Cahaya sekali lagi tersenyum dan berkata, “Lanjutkan keraguanmu, aku harus menghapuskannya sebelum aku mengirimmu ke dunia. Ketahuilah bahwasanya aku mencintaimu lebih dari yang diketahui olehmu dan para pesuruhku”. “Bahkan... sebelum aku melihat dan menjejakkan kaki ke bumi, aku harus menyakiti seorang wanita terlebih dahulu. Kutendang rahimnya dengan kakiku dan kurobek bawah perutnya agar aku bisa keluar. Apa ini yang disebut dengan kehidupan?”. Tanpa ada gurat kesal, Sang Cahaya kembali menjawab, “Dia tidak akan pernah merasa menyesal kau cabik-cabik badannya. Bahkan dia akan menganggap kau sebagai anugerah teristimewa dari-KU. Mereka yang membuatmu menjadi seseorang yang tak kau inginkan adalah ciptaan-KU semua, mereka khusus kukirim untuk menguji kesetiaanmu pada-KU. Hidup adalah pilihan, kaulah yang kelak akan menentukan akan jadi apa, dan akan kau lukis dengan warna apa hidupmu kelak”. Keragu-raguan yang menyelimuti sang tubuh perlahan-lahan mulai hilang, Iapun berkata, “Aku akan tetap setia pada-MU”. Cahaya yang mahadahsyat terpancar dari sekeliling sang tubuh yang bersemangat. Ia tidak lagi ingat apa yang telah terjadi...

Rookhensire, Inggris, United Kingdom, 01.00 a.m

“Aku lapar, beri aku makan”

“Tidak! Aku terlalu lelah untuk itu”

“Apa yang kau katakan? Rasa lapar lebih darurat daripada rasa lelah!”

“Tapi aku tidak dapat melakukan apa-apa dengan keadaan seperti ini. Aku kesakitan tolol!”

“Aku tidak peduli padamu, akulah yang mengontrol segalanya!”

“Kau adalah otak, tidak memiliki perasaan. Akulah yang dapat merasakan apa yang dia rasakan! Dia akan melakukan apa yang telah aku sinyalkan”

“Biadab! Aku bisa mengontrol dia dengan baik lebih dari yang dapat kau lakukan!”

“Kau seorang maniak! Dialah yang memiliki tubuh ini, dia bisa sakit kalau terus menuruti apa yang kau inginkan!”

“Persetan dengan itu semua, aku dapat mengendalikan tubuhnya dengan baik tanpa bantuanmu!”

“Buktikan!”

Aku pingsan seketika

Entah mengapa, aku tak pernah mampu membuat hati dan otakku berdamai...

Selamat, selamat, selamat, selamat, selamat, selamat, selamat, selamat, selamat, kata-kata itu terus yang kudengar dari mulut ribuan bahkan jutaan orang. Aku hanya menemukan sebuah pemikiran tentang hubungan antara manusia satu dengan manusia lainnya. Apanya yang spesial? Apa yang perlu dielu-elukan? Toh pada akhirnya pemikiranku hanya akan mampir di telinga beberapa mahasiswa dan masyarakat melalui buku-buku bajakan yang memuat pemikiranku. Aku hanya mencari jawaban dari arti sebuah hubungan manusia di dunia. Namun tanpa rasa hormat, mereka seenaknya menerbitkan pemikiranku dan menjualnya bermilyar-milyar kopi eksemplar di seluruh dunia. Dengan namaku ditulis dengan tinta emas di depan sampulnya. Apa yang istimewa? Aku sendiri sebenarnya bahkan belum dapat menemukan apa arti dari hubungan manusia itu sebenarnya di dunia. Mengapa kita harus hidup bersama? Dengan hidup bersama kita hanya akan bisa membuat sesuatu lebih buruk dari sebelumnya. Yang awalnya dirasa benar lantas diubah sedemikian rupa karena merasa tidak puas. Bukankah karena masyarakat lantas kita menghambur-hamburkan uang untuk sesuatu yang sebenarnya kurang kita perlukan? Hanya untuk sekedar mempertahankan gengsi dan sebuah loyalitas palsu. Masyarakat adalah racun! Hidup ini penuh dengan racun! Seluruh dunia ini telah dipenuhi dengan racun! Bahkan mungkin dalam tubuhku ini, racun-racun tersebut telah berotasi mengitari jantungku dan bersiap untuk memanggil Dewa Kematian. Kamu! Iya kamu! Jangan kamu kernyitkan dahimu! Apa kau pikir kau bebas dari racun? Lekas pergi dan menjauhlah dari masyarakat! Sekarang!!!

Betapa sunyi malam ini... tidak ada satupun suara dan nada menemani tari penaku saat ini. Begitu sunyi hingga suara tinta yang terhisap oleh kertaspun terdengar begitu keras. Memekakkan telinga dan mengaburkan pikiran. Mendadak semua bentuk di depanku berubah dan berputar-putar hebat. Ingin aku berteriak namun terlambat, ujung tajam penaku telah kutusuk-tusukkan di tenggorokanku, merobek-robek leherku hingga darah bercucuran dimana-mana. Belum puas, kuparut luka di leherku dengan paku dan kupotong pita suaraku. Biar aku bisu... hingga tak mampu kukatakan betapa menjijikannya kehidupan ini. Kujahit lukaku dengan jarum yang mulai berwarna agak kekuning-kuningan. Kutusukkan jarum dan benangnya pada kulitku, kutarik dan kembali kutusukkan berkali-kali hingga lukaku menutup. Kucoba untuk menoleh, jahitanku lepas dan darah kembali mengucur. Ada apa ini? Mendadak sekelilingku menjadi ramai. Musik terlantun dan manyapa lembut telingaku. Harum zaitun membelai hidungku. Indahnya bunga-bunga menyilakan mata lebarku. Ada apa ini? Mengapa mendadak menjadi panas sekali? Apa itu? Lubang besar datang menghampiriku! Mencoba menerkam dan menelanku. Tidaak!! Tolong aku!! Hei kamu, jangan diam saja!1

Hahaha, lebarnya tawaku

Tampannya wajahku

Milyaran uangku

Semua gadis datang kepadaku. Ada yang mengajakku bermain permainan yang aneh, dia mendesah-desah dia atasku dan memelukku erat. Kupikir, sudah gila gadis ini... apa yang bagus dariku? Oh ya, aku tampan, aku lupa, kaya pula!. Gadis bodoh, mungkin dia juga produk dari pabrik penghasil racun terbesar sejagat raya. Kasihan, tidak ada yang sadar. Gadis lain nampak malu-malu mendekatiku, jangankan menyentuh, melihat saja Ia tak mampu. Yang ini juga gila! Ah semua tak ada yang benar.

Hatiku gelisah

Gelisah

Gelisah

Apa yang sebenarnya aku cari

Apa?

Hahahahahahahaha apa?

Apa?

Heh kamu, bantu aku mencari tahu! Mengapa dari tadi hanya memperhatikanku saja?

Disana, tepat di ujung jalan itu aku menyaksikan tubuhku tergeletak tak bernyawa. Sesosok mayat yang bahkan seekor anjingpun enggan untuk mengendus baunya. Orang-orang berlalu lalang tiada henti tanpa ada satupun keinginan untuk sekedar menoleh menyaksikan tubuhku yang tergeletak. Disana, tepat di jalan Hell Suffer yang sempit dan gelap. Aku terdiam kaku menyaksikan tubuhku dengan bisu. Ingin rasanya kubawa tubuhku dan kukubur di tempat yang sepantasnya. Tapi aku kini hanyalah sesuatu, yang hanya bisa mencari sesuatu yang bahkan tak kutahu apa itu. Aku diam. Aku diam. Aku diam. Aku diam. Genap sudah satu abad aku mencari sebuah jawaban atas pertanyaan yang diajukan oleh banyak manusia. Mungkin juga kau... tentang, mengapa kita hidup. Sekali lagi, kamu. Iya kamu. Kalau kamu merasa bersih, tolong aku menguburkan jasadku ya... akan kuseret jasadku dengan temali dan membawanya ke tempat tinggalmu. Satu lagi, tanyakan temanmu, memangnya untuk apa kita hidup? Hehehe untuk... apa...? Hehehe... Lucu ya? Untuk apa kita hidup? Untuk apa?